I'm crying but my dick's still hard.

twiddles thumbs and watches as the Psych section of AO3 is flooded with fic that isn’t mine for a change

i wish i knew man i got mine to calm it by throwing distractions at it (ie, sleep, books, games) until my short attention span can bring me around to new better thoughts. when in trouble, i go to bed and 99% of the time waking up makes it better 4 me

yeah

escapism’ll usually do it for me just find something to get away from being me for a while so i feel better when i am but just… i want it to stop.

it’s taken me almost seven years to figure out that i don’t deserve to feel like this and now it’s just irritating and disheartening when it pops up.

but yeah, good plan. bed sounds like an excellent idea i’m gonna get off and go and spend the day tomorrow marathoning game of thrones or top gear or something

i’m too wiped to really express this properly, but i appreciate the reply and the friendship and everything

sorry for being awkward ollies out of this plane of existence

asking questions like “what’s wrong with me” ends up being a lot less fun when the pretty consistent answer is “depression”

i mean there’s a lot of others too but most of those are branches from the origin so

i don’t understand i’ve had a really good few days and i was in such a good mood then out of nowhere i get blindsided with “not good enough” “gonna die alone” “messed up and weird and not worth it” and fuck that noise

i’m great and i’m going to keep being great but there’s just this… naggingness that doesn’t sleep for very long apparently before it decides i need to be reminded that i’ve deserved every terrible emotion and thought i’ve ever had

if anyone knows how to shut that voice up, let me know asap

gunugy:

hey how about instead of using terms like rule 63, genderbend, sexswap, etc.

we use presentationplay

• it’s cute
• isn’t binarist
• doesn’t ignore trans* identities in favor of rule 63 (i might not be wording this point correctly ._.)
• allows for variation in body types and in clothing/hair/etc. styles without falling into gross gender stereotypes

how about it

sellerdoor:

wow I really appreciate nice anons a lot

this is a post dedicated to every anon that has chosen to use their anonymity to be good and send encouraging and nice messages instead of being mean to someone, you guys rock

I love your descriptions so much. YOUR NARRATIVE VOICE, UGH. It’s good stuff. Always.

:3 Thanks!! I’m so glad you like it :3333

mistercoventry: